Fuck it. Right? Things are looking up Everything is going right But I'm in the turning lane stuck. My first instinct is to go left. Against what's best. Just to get lost again. What's next? Fuck them. Out of sight. I find that sometimes I'm out of line and wish I didn't fight. I pick and choose my battles I will not lose til my heart shatters. Yeah I'm bruised but watch my blood splatter when I pull the trigger because I don't matter. Fuck this. All I do is sit and reminisce about the things that I did and I miss all those I pushed away for acting like shit. One more kiss And ill go away if you're not feeling it I have the noose around my neck already you're on the other line reeling it. Reeling it in. Why do you keep casting it out it's healing nothing I tried to put it past me but now I'm concealing it in Exausted from this game yet you keep dealing me in I cant win. Is it you who I am speaking to or in my mind I just think it's true I'm crazy all I do is poison myself because I'm feeling blue. I'm hazy nothing new. Don't take it personal if I act like I never knew. I didn't. I I I swear I forgot babe I'm innocent. Tell me I'm not babe All these incidents That don't go my way Are repetitions That circle around me each day. Fuck my life. I will never get it right. I tried Then I lied Started a fight All for what? You really hung me up tight I'm out of touch. Soon I'll be out of sight. Goodnight. Im feeling sick like i wanna throw up I give up. I gave up quick its not worth being fucked up. Can't see shit. My visions fucked up. Got too lit. Don't know what's enough. Please hand me more stuff I cant handle things that don't go my way So I dismantle everything and leave it in disarray Don't know why I can't adult. I can't put shit away. I try but I fail. Probably cause I Took too many pills today. Now I'm stuck and angry wondering who I just might kill today. Feeling ill today. Wondering how TF I'ma keep it trilll today I have a few on my list of who's blood I just might spill today Paint the curb crimson what a nice touch It's the holiday season are you feeling the love? Just kicked their teeth in they're trying to get up I said just let that seep in next time you throw bluffs. They say kilo. That's enough. Tell me what to do one more time bitch and you'll see what this bat does. Tell me how to live my life and I'll tell you how to get fucked up I dont need your comments I am fine now worry bout you, love. I'm in the clouds way up above Aware of my inevitable descend I know each time I come crashing down it's hard for me to mend.