Im up I'm trying I suck Im worthless and guilty as fuck. Im dying inside cause I'm stuck I'm crying inside cause I'm tough. Intentions were good til i treat you like shit It's a cycle it's not right though and I'm well aware of it. I love you with all the blood that pumps from my heart and through my veins. I know it seems like I don't care it seems like I'm insane. My ego sets me up for failure there's a fault within my brain. I'm hoping I can fix it cause I've already inflicted too much pain on you I turned you blue now I'm sitting here and missing What we once were like before any fight Before i went and lied Before i made you cry. I wish I could take it back because I'd rather die Than see you this fucking sad but dont wanna say good bye Sorry just has lost its meaning when I say it. I don't know how to fix my ways... So I'll just say this.... I want nothing more than to be happy and healthy and for us to be in love. I can't walk out that door anymore without feeling like my heart has sunk.. Like the Titanic. Don't let me go even though my heart seems cold. I panic when I fuck up I know this shit is getting old. I cant stand it when you look like you've had enough it really hurts my soul. We are a all because I don't know how to manage myself and it looks like I'm taking advantage of the way my problems aren't solved but more so bandaged. I swear I'll make it through the rough just promise that sometimes you'll hold me even though it's tough to get past the old me. One thing is for sure I love you so much sorry it isn't showing