Seems as though I can't succeed Failure at birth. Yep that's me. Concerned about who I hurt? I try but they don't see. Never learn my worth. My ego's in controll. I let it be They feed my head til it's full then they flee when they see what an empty hole in my chest there could be. No worries it's burried somewhere beneth my bones real deep. May be small and cold but when I'm alone all I seek is someone to make me feel home all of those who came close lasted a week I wouldn't pick up the phone when they called I was no longer enthralled With their presence Or perhaps I tricked my mind into thinking that they were unpleasant all because I'm not living in the present I'm way ahead of my self trying to teach lessons all while running away from heaven. Why am I running away from heaven And straight to the nearest I7.11 Settle down. Not right now. I couldn't settle down, anyhow. I mean I'm settling down Im with my girl in a house. But I'm still metalling around with what comes in and out of my mouth. I need not make any sounds. So I just swallow my pride along with a few pills on the side. Not like I'd make you proud. I can't hide what is truly inside. Inside me is what I'm still trying to find What resides in me. It's selfish and unkind. Don't gotta lie to me I know im a mess nevermind me I've already confessed and you chose to get behind me. Wait a minute back up you can't rewind me That's in the past I done fucked that up so what are you trying? Gravity is taking toll. I'm being sucked into the ground and it is getting old I must look up to stay around before I lose my soul. Was swimming in a fish bowl now I'm just falling down this sink hole. No longer whole. I lost some pieces I don't know where t I leave em. I swear I'm on a roll. They said I am going down I don't wanna believe em. Give me a crown. I am the queen of the heathens running around with an army of demons I was conceiveing Manifest all things less in my life that leave me bleeding all because I can't beat em. I'm done I will quit while I'm ahead hit me in the head. I'm so shitty why don't you kick me out the bed and leave me for dead instead. Cause I'm running anyways I'll be gone in the am what a blessin thought I had control but I let them take me where they wanna go I do not get them all these thoughts in my head got me running from heaven instead I'm running to the seven eleven. To get away from the mess I made.to sit by the redbox machine and think of all my mistakes. To count change for a drink it doesn't matter how bad it tastes. I won't waste a drop to raise my alcohol intake. It's so late it's about 610 am Sitting on a curb hoping and praying That they won't make me leave the property cause I'm not payin