I'm not okay Everyday feeling the same pain Depression always finds a way to seep into my brain It's hard for me to stay sane It's even worse when someone says they feel the same way Because they don't know how I feel Everyone's acting like it's no big deal But Imma bout to tell you something too real Gotta put that fake smile on so I don't reveal the sadness The black abyss of not having happiness I'm getting to a point were I'm so easily pissed When I'm gone I can promise I'll never be missed Tried to suffocate myself when my dad passed But just before I blacked out I backed out Because I don't want my family to have to bury me I always try to make jokes but that's my hoax Inside I wanna cry but I got no shoulder to cry on So I gotta make a bolder move and just carry on and pack all my emotions inside The real me I wanna hide but I'm tired of keeping it in I'm tired of letting everybody call me names Tired of playing life's games Tired of these pains I got no one to blame My life is like a candle flame I just want to blow it out like my brain But I care to much about some people But no one will ever know my true evil the true me I guess laughter is the best medicine so where's my needle I just hope it's lethal Because I'm like this I'll never treat myself as equal The first part of my life was so bad I'm sacred to see the sequel I'm not alright I'm not okay I don't wanna feel today I just wanna die today someone take this pain away Because I'm not okay