life is full of those not all there moments its what you will do next thats creating & defining your best, presents where does your time go does what you do truly get measured, recycled, reused, 4 insperation or innovatin what you are saying, portraying, relaying your messages to them, in a style that also a future you could also use as a reflection of you as if you, are talking to you as if you were them you see do you talk to them, as if they, were you or better yet still, do you talk to them as if they, were me or as sa f, they were your queen or someone who you royaly respect or if they were who you love most who, you have or want most as sa, part of your family what if they were ill croniclly what if there dillusion percieved you as their enemy weather if its them belittleing you, with the passion to teach wheather its them treating you, in a way you percieve is mean to make your stronger in their theory to make you tougher hardning the way you care and give so you build up a wall, create an inpeniterable shell, as a defence mechenisim, so you servive in a world, and not have to live through what they have been tourchered with or have been force to continue to live with validations for vindictive reasonings excuses they use to abuse who they use excuses to what they tell their own mind inorder to justify their will to feel spite so they feel better when they purposly ignore or bite the hand, thats been so kind would you still have the will to fight fight to servive or to keep the love connection alive do you fight because in your mind, your not fussed if you die or do you fight for the bill do you fight to kill, the why, for the unconditional cost of time or the allaby that knows who you truely are so that those, who will twist, manipulate, construde the truth cant lie when they use tallent, fame to subtlly inflict pain yeah, when they use tallent to tame they fully become a bully forcing confusing contradictions with the excuse that they or someone will find it funny or when a drug, or love, sniffing, genoriously gift giving or recieving princess'es preasents uses friendship to force guilt or forces you to lie or keep a secret and they dont believe they need to give back what they have been given so generiously because the people who they be surrounding, bludging, loving or have caught up in there mess be saving them, time and time again with there awesomeness, and thats how they justify not giving a fuck how they decide if they feel like its time for you to be, fucked all out of luck do you fight for this thrill do you fight to teach, preach what you believe is real or for what you see, what you want, what you need, what you believe, you deserve, will heal to justify a lie, when you tell yourself this is the real how they validate from hate, triggered from their squeeze, teased from what you know what yo, believe, you, need, to make you, feel better, when yo take or steal do you use, trust, or lust to decieve make them lose, how youve lost trust in people who abuse, their love for you and kill their love for people, like you whats the world coming to, when the time comes when we see this happening to everybody when the reason, for their hate, their spite, love style or how they debate, is it their friend tax, they believe they deserve past love or drug justificates or greed thinking they need this and that more then us believing they are better, then whoever, they plan to never see again and then I snap of of this and put it down to another one of my, not all there moments and forget, or loose all of thise so I can go on creating and defining an even better presents wheather I come up with this again from a pattern thats nearly but never the same or wheather one day I do retaliate force innovatshain evoke touchoriouse change or choose to let other take these thoughts at will for their own insperation that will depend on how much, I care the end