ive lived a hard life plent times i turned to a knife i can not lie plenty times i wish id just die so i turn to rap it made me feel less crap the places ive been things ive seen a knife through the door been thrown to the floor im 14 now still wondering how thought id be dead even been kicked in the head im being bullied dont know what to say they say its time for me to pay i dont know who to tell it fells like this world i live in is hell i wish i knew who to go to that wont judge some1 who doesnt have a grudge i am a failure at everything so im alone here on the swing complaining to you you dont care i know its true i try to help everyone it just gets fucked in my face but i guess this world fir me just isnt the place ive been hoping its a dream that ill just wake up a scream there was a time when i was alone nowhere to go no place to call home they say theres a reason for everything i wonder what the future will bring hopefully ill get a girlfriend and i hope it wont end ive been waiting a while to find that moment when i can just smile and there was one person always there and she the one person that does care and that is my mum she has been there for when i was numb shes been through hell with me scince i was three when he would shout she would helpe out i wish i knew who to go to that wont judge some1 who doesnt have a grudge i am a failure at everything so im alone here on the swing complaining to you you dont care i know its true i try to help everyone it just gets fucked in my face but i guess this world fir me just isnt the place ive been hoping its a dream that ill just wake up a scream its been kinda hard putting my life into words i wish i would just turn into one of them birds ive had aload of dad but the one i have now is the best ive had see there is light at the end of the tunnel maybe i did need a funnel we got there in the end but who knows whats just around the bend i hope its somin good and wont pull down my hood