im not okay but i smile anyways you can see many smiles every day it hurt but its okay i'm used to it i just want a day where it feels like i'm not fallin apart anymore and im tryin to never lose myself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losin me and i think im afraid to be happy cause whenever i do get too happy something bad always happens and the things is you is be actin like u care actin like u give a shit bout me and the truth is you don fuckin care u just pretending i wish i could hurt you the way you hurt me but if i had the chance i wouldn't do it danm no matter what i go through i will always tell you im straight but don played with me cause u ene ga like the way i play back and im done cut u off so im just gonna stay positive. And im still wonderin why stuff had to be this way hmm wow and i try explaining why i was so sad but nothing could come out that was when i realize i didn know either