I'm glad you're happy, I'd rather see you enjoy life instead of feel crappy, I'm mad but sad and can't control my thoughts, I wish I could stop my hurt, and have my heart beat go to a pause, I'm sorry that I caused this, I'm so fucked, I'm not suicidal but I get a couple thoughts of me dying, I've become addicted to the pain and hurt that being happy takes effort, I dont know what to do, besides get rid of me, put me in a cell where I belong, so I'm alone just where i started from, I shut myself down and shove everyone away, which makes it worse but when you fall with someone just remember you have to pick yourself up first, and holding grudges wont do shit, but learning from you're mistakes help from where it is, it's like I tell myself that but my brain wont suck it in