I been tryin to find a reason just to keep on breathing cause lately I've been dealing with to much fuckin bull shit im not the one to fool with im an outcast still screaming fuck the cool kids mother fuck the cool kids im an outcast still screaming fuck the cool kids I been wasting so much time feep my life has no meanin fuckin demons got me screamin this the way im feelin and im tryin to find a reason i should keep on fuckin breathing so manny homies dead now i see them when im dreaming listen i know i might be reaching the point in my life where i get my shit together and start living right but i cant get right because right now im in a fight batteling addiction and i might loose my life cause im tryin to numb the pain erase all the strife but i try and try and try with all my might but to no avail now im feelin like who the hell am i just look up to the sky and when i begin to cry i hit my fuckin knees and i ask God why Why did Random have to die? Why couldnt his father fuckin open up and just try to understand and give me a quick 3 minutes to say Goodbye goddamned. He knew we were friends closer fuckin brothers but we stayed in to much trouble . Sry Mr. Adrian i hate to bust ya bubble but when sean passed itd been a fuckin year since we even seen eachother. we did heroin together whenever we was chillin and i your eyes that makes me the fuckin villain and you can blame for the rubble . Now Ive forgave myself and im tryin to be humble but because the guilt you have within you gotta live with double double the guilt and double the pain. And im numb to it all from the dope in my veins so fuck yall yeah i screamin fuck yall I been tryin to find a reason just to keep on breathing cause lately I've been dealing with to much fuckin bull shit im not the one to fool with im an outcast still screaming fuck the cool kids Rip sean michael adrian