#freestyle they say that life is special but I'm living it like a sinner I overcome obstacles but the next one becomes bigger I'm not gonna sit here and say my life is perfect cos it isn't I mean it's kinda crazy isn't it sitting in my room actin like a lyricist but truth be told I might aswell be a hypnotist you see I don't understand I lay in my bed stare at the ceiling like I'm in a trance thinking what I could've done better embedding some thoughts that'll help me in the latter stages of my career can't seem to express this pain inside of me if money buys happiness then why ain't I happy wait is life so important oh no I'm sorry I forgot life is like a camera you focus on what's important capture the good times develop from the negatives and if things don't work out take another shot last week I bumped into depression ruined his shirt apparently it's stained On that same night I found out respect isn't asked for but it's something that's gained listen how do I do this sitting in my room listening to no excuses first time I don't know how to do this life is a mess I don't know how I'm feeling am I a different kind of person or a different kind of being not telling everyone how I feel kinda stupid but let me go in tell you how I feel everybody getting on their knees and neel imma be honest my feelings too real oh no you offended I'm sorry but I gotta keep it together for the people who think I cant get nowhere in life oof everyday you wake up and stare at people who used you this feelings a feeling that I am not used to oof picture this a dark room and a kid laying on his bed so many dark thoughts running through his head he sighs and instead gets up and raps the lines that he read from NF to Marshall Mathers nobody can imagine the pain that he gathers man this lifes a deception thinking it's perfect listen to perception ever since I was a little kid I wanted NF merch I know that's kinda stupid but I was on the search for people to know that I learnt how to keep it all in and not be hurt but it's not good to keep it in emotions bottled up patience running thin I mean I could've said anything thank god I controlled my anger and didn't swing hitting up one of my friends for a hook I couldn't sing turns out I'm stronger than I think and happier than I've ever been