This story so sorrowful its all bout my foolishness And boastful nature that tortures me like a vulture But I vowed in my own culture not to touch nor use Vulgar language am only forced to do so more so Vowels ain't enough to show them my roughness And toughness till when I'll harness my strength Then start showing a lot of care to myself and family So many responsibilities waiting for me with a few Possibilities of getting an opportunity to work in this Government after pursuing all this degrees instead My dignity is being decreased but I won't cease prayin' Till they incline there ears to me I'll be a paper chaser Hustler like no other get my own mulla and be a teaser Am tired of being a burden to them until then my plan Is to show them I understand and I can study life's Teachings ,stand on my own but for now I'll be humble Though they say am proud guess its fraud I've been Depraved to an extend of being enraged but it ranges From bad to worse no difference I need a house full Of love and all this I look on to my Heavenly Father Only Him can give me a shoulder to lean on when Am depressed and my emotions have been erased Though they still care I've been degraded and Frustrated I guess this society sees youths as useless But remember a shoe without a shoelace is shoeless Am Shawn less shameless of my state let them have A taste of my venom am enormous not famous let Them underestimate me but life has life mates who Can aid me live a better life .I thank dear Lord for my mama bore a caring sister She was there for me and never gave up on me paid My school fees cause she believed in me she was Therefore my all in all am sorry I let her down I know She won't appreciate when she knows the really me Am a naive boy from the outside am Innocent but The things done in the darkness I know they'll be Revealed in broad daylight but Christ is my Light Temptations thought me a lot plus I love my sister Though she won't give it a thought coz she knew me And my 'girlfriend' were in a relationship so long its Wrong I've been prolonged by my feelings my mind So ill but one day I'll have a better life and I'll be helpful To everyone who looks to me can't let my family down And my God I trust you even they see me as trash Am gonna crash this obstacles and tuck all my Challenges using tactics to tackle them with my Talent Harlem this added sorrow to my life till Am on the edge of giving up but this is me am a Man created in the image and likeness of God who Never gives up on me I'll praise and raise my voice To air out my feelings to Him who am I please am I blind or this eyes don't see anything I waste my time Doing nonsense but why do I have the four senses But no common sense in me I'll cool myself using Ice cream its 12am in the morning and I've realised I gat no aim in my life I here them screaming in my Brain only to realise dad was whispering in my ears I fight wars at night not knowing whether I'll win I have a debate in my mind but responsibilities win Somebody tell me am I a lost youth I wish somebody Told us we could be far by now with our investments Its so funny sai wanatulaumu but Maulana mi hurudi Kwako na sitachoka kubisha ati nikiaibika siweki Imani kwa binadamu hizi blessings we ndo hutubariki Though tunakutupa I apologize nijaze na roho wako Maisha Inaendelea ,ngoso ni life goes on.....