how do I explain exactly how I feel when i feel Unsure how much of this is real time is passing but my life is still the same you know I got to persevere through all the pain you see the scars on my skin and I fall down again pick myself back up but still there ain't no sign of the end tears streaming down my face all I taste is the salt got a son who doesn't know me and it's hardly his fault things were hard at the start I was falling apart got put in jail again and then I Hardened My Heart this is an apology from the father you haven't had just a Confessions of a deadbeat dad I need someone to lean on somebody who cares shoulder to cry on because life ain't fair I can't run anymore I'm too out of breath make it how it was before I had nothing left x2 I called the other day I'm glad I caught you at home I know you're still too young to like talk on the phone but that's all I have left like a weight on my chest haven't seen you in half a year but maybe that's for the best when I stop and look back seems I always put you last I guess its only fair I watch you grow up threw photographs they say the Apple never Falls far from the tree man that's scary I don't want you to be like me I hope someone would see that I'm a good guy that's damned by mistakes cursed by the fates and all these choices that I make this is an apology from the father you haven't had just a confession of a deadbeat dad