couldn't wait hometown liven as a child always thought I'd want to move far away had dreams to leave those small hometown ways just couldn't wait thaught i knew fait. as life goes on sitting back remaining in memorys of my past not ready to let go feels to fast praying forit to last . at this time I am 14 very mean hardly 1+clean ready to cause a seen couldn't leave yet starting to feel regret. who' want to bet I got it set if i leave ill be chossing somthing i know ill regret at 18 my mind was set why leave when i had it made . then I turned 25 thats when I began a down hill slide a wrong turn kinda life definitely lost sight of the light my mind was never right because one bad night meth was introduced into my life for 4 years i chased that first high didn't want to Chang my ways could have died many ways depression and anxiety were now part of me . open heartedly i felt like I departed the one and only father in heaven it was then I started the change to better my ways i knew it would take time and days getting clean was a maze especially there in my small hometown it was every were i turned around then I met a beautiful woman who will always have my heart she with god pulled the devel off i was finally free for once I could breathe they set me free from all wich bounded me the woman of my dreams actually wanted me and unbelievably she asked me to move to her town so I was on my way happy. ready to leave the town that ruined me undoubtedly . when I first set eyes on her i was sure I was in a dream then her touch sent a rush right through me she was great she even had two kids a girl and a boy both of wich i slowly but definitely became close to the time we had i will cherish tell i become an angle in the sky and i will watch over my last love and my lill buddies god only put us together to help each other recover and never look back i went to church with her family and did I feel god his presences overwhelmingly upon us both the pastor brother mike i promise not another like him he and Jesus pulled us out of the worst now my soul bursts in praise to worship and shout his name. JESUS ty for all wich you do i know it's because of u working through amazing souls is what helped my love and I give up a non stop life of crime . I love her so much for me to be able to say how much I cared for her atleast 10 times a day. fights came and went wich gave the 2 of us less time spent with each other never did I want to leave or give up on her but the problem we had was comunaction and it honestly ended our relationship but know i no even though I still love her god sent her temporally as did he me for her we were each a pice of gods Foundation to a reborn life in Christ god told me it was meant to be always was hard for me to see but now that ive gone and back in my small hometown I need to really think about what gets put in lifes trials and tribulations when I got back i had to battle a few demons and to be honest its only been 3 days since we split our ways so you yes you if u will say a prayer i won't go back. yes I have god but my hearts broken i know I'm doing wrong ive sliped back and i knew I shouldn't have but I need to pray for god to guide me straight away from sad dope life I know I can live right i always get my strength through Jesus Christ through him all is possible so if your on the dope show god wants you to know to ask him for help prais him shout his name JESUS Jesus i give u my life to live as your vessel always remember no ones perfect. and it's because of him . sorry but not sorry but yes its the end make your choice but the awncer is clear i am brother Charles through Christ i will win my fight im ready to live a new life for Jesus Christ