When is this pathetic life ever gonna get better? you seem to love everyone n bless them. but What about me, God? I help everyone I give until there's nothing left for me. They just take When theres nothing left for me THEY take some more. THEN they take off and I'm drained I cant take no more. I hate the heart I have. I don't want it make it black so maybe I can be like everyone else and feel nothing. so what's up yahwe can I get a lucky break or blessing like I notice everyone else in this fuckin ugly world gets except me? I never ask for anything but wisdom. so this time it's to hit the lottery for about a hundred gs so I can buy a house to have my kids come over no matter how hard I try to succeed I just fail. I don't have shit to show why everyone else my age has a career and a home and all the luck in the world. when I'm not asking for much. just maybe a reward for keeping my heart and getting used in return then I'm discarded when I no longer play a beneficial part.