I wish I could go back to school before all this fuckedupshit started happening man I feel like such a ffuckin fool sitting out h e a r puking up my guts yman I feel like I'm constantly dragging around a bunch of baggage and stuck in the ruts I'm just trying to survive and all I can do is sit here and transmit this lyrical fix trying to get you to understand my vibe I'm sick of all this jibber jabber I'm starting to lose my shit and if I don't get this supplementation soon I'm going to blow my brains out or my skulls going to split and I'm so sick of this shit depression why you got to come and go why can't you just let me know man the fact is is that there are no facts everything is unknown I have no homes and everyday all I do is hear this goddamn same piercing ringing phone in the back of my head and it's my conscience screaming at me that my consequences are finally coming back to reap the day all I want to do is slit my wrists and slip away in the into the Bliss why do things have to be so hard why am I losing my mind I just want to be free why do things have to be so hard why am I losing my mind all right look you got a face it with the bad and the good but right now there ain't nothing good and everybody's going head-first at this race and everybody wants to be first but all I want is to be heard I don't care if I finish in second or third I just want to be up in the sky floating free like a bird hell I could finish last and everybody call me a turd and I'd still be happy with my life just as long as I don't end up killing myself with the knife first cuz man I got these anger flashes and heat bursts I've been manipulated and I can't trust no one do you know how painful it is to constantly have to look over your shoulder this shit ain't no fun man I've been homeless but right now I ain't no fucking bum i'm trying to climb the ladder everybody's looking at me like damn look at that man he's the fucking mad hatter I ain't no mad hatter everybody else is happy I'm just a little bit sadder I mean fuck God why don't you just do the rapture and take me away from this rainy day