you know that date 1/2 - 09 - 16 that's one mama I wish you would come back cuz I'm all alone and no body is home everybody hates me now I feel like a piece of shit I always called you fat and was telling you you were not good enough never did enough damn I would give anything for a little bit of tough love a kiss on the cheek or a hug I just want to be your little baby again I feel like a stuffed hen waiting to be slaughtered on Thanksgivingthere's that never-ending stinging at the back of my head if you were still here. I'd beg you to break bread half the time I feel like putting a bullet in my head Mama since you been gone I've been wishing I was dead ILL never be the same without you I hate going up to that goddamn cemetery and sitting on that wooden benches staring at that hole in the ground I was digging through all of their old photos and guess what I found me and you doing some crafts just being in each other's little love buddy I do anything for that embarrassing lovey-dovey cuddle buddy you did with me in high school but right now I feel like it's fucked up ugly piece of shit fuck tool I was back in high school then you would still be here with me and I wouldn't have dropped out you were beautiful the most respectful loving woman on the planet life is getting so tough it's about to the point where I can't handle it if you can hear this right now Mama I love you and I hope you're out there waiting up in the clouds opening the doors of heaven for me look Mom I'm down here struggling in it evens the scores but Imma do my best to make you proud eventually we can be together in the clouds