Preparation This isn't an attack Or an attempt to put you down I spent my whole life just tryna figure this shit out I've got this fire inside of me thats been smothered by doubt I just wanna speak the truth, but I'm scared that I'm still not allowed Tryna release all the energy Mastered my artistry Obsessed with psychology Still not enough for me this urge that I've surpressed Is burning to come out of me It's been buried for so long That it's not coming quietly All the mistakes that you made You came by them honestly You wanted different for me Yet I was still raised in hostility The story I told depended on who was standing next to me I don't want to hurt you I'm just finally speaking truthfully Prepare yourself for what you about to hear I apologize You're not parents of the year Let me stress this You left me defenseless It's always been my biggest fear You'll leave me rejected Dejected,  and you'd never get the message, how you made me so sick, Called me your sidekick But then you left me in the open Noones left unbroken Now I'm not tryna fight you This is just how I'm copin' Let's relive this one more time Please release me from these binds Can't untie them when your blind Try and see things through my eyes I have a problem that's effected my life Can't keep a job, and can't be a wife. Forever in a constant state of fight or flight Struggling every moment to just stay alive I really only learned to barely survive And just when I think there's a chance I might thrive I'm reminded of the times that I almost died I'm physically tied, and emotionally dried Crippled by the complexities inside my mind Craving every home that I ever had to leave behind Comfort for me, is such a hard thing to find But when my pen hit the paper something aligned I'm using the voice you've quieted down If your wondering why it's gotten so loud It's because you weren't listening when I was still around I've given up on trying to make you proud Let's relive this one more time Please release me from these binds Can't untie them when your blind Try and see things through my eyes Left with no choices I remained voiceless Life became pointless And I became hopeless Now I'm telling my story How I want it to be told I'm taking what you gave me And making it an album to be sold Raised in criminality before I was a day old I'm sorry to be the one to have to reep what you sowed Cause I know you'll never give, what that baby girl is owed So im taking what I've got and making it on my own. Can't relive this one more time I have to break free from these binds Turn your back and close your eyes I wish I too could be blind