Chorus] All I ever wanted was to see All I ever wanted was to breathe I don't know what's happening to me But I got some demons, demons All I ever wanted was to see All I ever wanted was to breathe I don't know what's happening to me But I got some, but I got some demons [Verse 1] Still inside of my room Still don't know what I'm doing Still lost, still tryna figure out what to do You wanna talk? I'm not in the mood I'm paralysed and I'm tryna... You know what? Fuck it I got so many issues I cannot explain it I know what I'm feeling but I can't relay it I'm so out of touch 'cause my derealisation I don't feel alive and my mind it keeps racing My anxiety's high and my life is outrageous I'm not the same I can feel it I am changing Can't get out of my head I've been barricaded I'm losing my mind and I'm trying to save it, but can't You ever been in a position? Where you feel lost and nobody listens Layin' on your bed, staring at the ceiling Eyes tearin' up 'cause the way that you're feeling I'm feeling like me, I have always been in it Why does it feel like I've always been different? Why does it feel like a part of me's missing? Deep in depression like how'd I fall in it? Like where did I go wrong? I haven't felt normal in so long I'm closed off My anxiety spikes every night so it makes it harder for me to doze off That's real, so shut up and save it The nerve of some of you to think I would fake it If you think I'm happy you're sadly mistaken I run from my demons when I should just face 'em, damn [Chorus] All I ever wanted was to see All I ever wanted was to breathe I don't know what's happening to me But I got some demons, demons All I ever wanted was to see All I ever wanted was to breathe I don't know what's happening to me But I got some, but I got some, demons [Verse 2] Still inside of my room Still don't know what I'm doing Still lost, still tryna figure out what to do You think you know me? You don't I have a dream you'll leave me alone I have a nightmare of losing control Fuck In a bad place, what was the outcome? Me stalling not dropping an album? The world waiting on me but I'm waiting 'til I find myself so please don't ask me "How come it ain't here Sik? I need you to go ham" Talk shit to me but you don't understand Talking about "Sik if you don't drop shit I'mma straight dip, say bye to a fan" Stressed out when music is my job Lately, it feels like I'm losing my mind Sick of the fake smile when deep down You can tell I got a lot going on I've been hiding my feelings for too long I never felt like I ever belonged Its hard to say how I feel, so I keep it real and rap it in all of my songs, so When it drops you gon feel this The definition of what real is I am imperfect but that makes me perfect I create my music from the pain I deal with But I'm still lost, tryna find a way Laying in bed, yeah I'm wide awake I don't know what I'm tryna say I guess what I'm tryna say is