Im sorry. I just popped another xan Hopped in to the benzo once again. Without it in the mix I cant comprehend the thoughts that I manifest inside my head.. Without them I feel like I don't have friends It's getting hard to pretend like I dont have a problem and I cant understand how to explain to those who wanna solve em Dont wanna put a burden dont wanna revolve their lives around me hurting I dont wanna involve them. The only time I feel sane is when i up and run away to those who ive surrounded my self with for far too long to go away. We have mutual dismay therefor we have a lot to say since we are content with our decend we've been tripping so we are slipping we have no defence. Stop looking my way I might snap Please stop this aggravation Its a fucking trap. Its not anyone specific but statitics say its all of those existing im ballistic with the shit these bitches dishin. Its like the air is getting thicker My stomach getting sicker My temper is a timebomb and its ticking so much quicker. I drown my self with liquor so i black out when i miss her. One more sip and i might forget her til i wake up feeling bitter because i cant ignore the whispers. hen i hit her I dont recall so after all i hit the wall and then i kissed her. She falls and then she balls and makes some calls just cause i dissed her then i get mad and super sad i am not that bad please mister dont take me away to an awful place because i cant ignore the whispers I mentally shaking? I don't need it to survive. Do I?.... 'Cause I'm mentally breaking. Not really feeling alive. Might die. Not dead yet. But I'm crying at some words that were not said yet. How many xans does it take so I forget, how ignorant ive become regarding regrets? Am I mentally shaking? I don't need it to survive. Do I?.... 'Cause I'm mentally breaking. Not really feeling alive. Might die. Not dead yet. But I'm crying at some words that were not said yet. How many xans does it take so I forget, how ignorant ive become regarding regrets?