1 time for all the depressrd folks out there that just need some extra love and care 2 times for the kids pulling out their hair 3 times for evryome caught in the snare Growing up as a kid i didnt have a father and didnt know what to expect. then my mom fell in love him amd her were like 2 doves but he had habits that couldnt be cured the birds were happy but when mommy flew away stepdaddy was an alcoholic irresponsible parent 19 and very lean he never had kids before he only ever did the chores back home middle child without parental support always the bad kid going to jail then with his own family he just failed used to being the bitch in the cell now he running his own hell well he would try and be my father but as the years got longer the gap between has only gotten farther Me and this man cant have a conversation about each other because we dont know each other try and tell him how i feel he acts cold as steel telling me that my suicidal thoughts will heal cant be real around him or he'll shut me down Then his inferiority complex emerges goes into a fiery rage and wrecks evrything is way saying he will change for 10+ years cant hide the tears when he screaming at my mom every night i lay awake thinkong about putting a stake through is heart and hearing the alms my restless mind begins to doubt myself it never calms. begin to think im the problem now im sobbin clutching the pillow trying to muffle the sounds of my gutteral screams as the streams break through my eyes i cant help but ask why why am I here is it the beer is it me then i get the images in my mind the dark kind plotting my escape to the bridge while im standin on the ledge looking at the edge of a river cltuching at my head wishing i was dead but i cant take the leap im just to weak then as everything is all bleak i see them my friends that are like family that help me through this happily i pull myself down and realize im a clown take one last look around and tell myself never again but now i gotta confront the demon in my brain 1 time for all the depressrd folks out there that just need some extra love and care 2 times for the kids pulling out their hair 3 times for evryome caught in the snare