im on this 3 hour drive, staring at these trees on the mountainside, wonderin why, everytime i fucking try, people always hate me lookin at me sideways, monday tuesday wednesday thursday and lastly friday, i try not to but i get my girlfriend upset, now im staying up till 5 cause i cant rest, wondering if i should put a fork in an outlet, hitting my fucking walls while im shouting, dont know what to do im having a meltdown, and since its so late no one else is around to calm me down, so im actually about to suicide, kinda wanna cry while i fall asleep, but if i did do it would anyone even miss me, and now my baby wont respond, maybe she'll text back askin where i went when im forever gone, and my mom will have to text her to tell her whats wrong, because while she was mad i couldve hung myself or better yet snapped my neck, or i couldve overdosed or held my breath,