Forgiveness I take it one day at a time, aware of my surroundings, cuz them haters and hoed wanna hound me, but I pay them no mind, I gotta keep focused and stay on my grind, i would if i could turn back the hands of time, Maybe my life, would be different, there trying to catch me slipping, so I pray every night, asking God for forgiveness, and stay alive, cuz the way that im livin it isn't right, hustling for commission, everyday and knight, prides what drives my ambition, on a star im wishing , asking for riches, cuz life's is hard, amazed that I made it this far, i spit my life on these bars, ain't no way I'm a spend my life behind bars, thank the Lord, for another day with breath to breathe, will i make it, you best believe, they sweating me, and wont let me be, let me get to my remedy, and spit this so heavenly, when I die will you open up the gates for me, it's hell on earth and even though I know I've done so much wrong, i feel I deserve, to be in peace, for eternity, Lord please don't forget me, when it's my turn, only the truly wicked demons shoild burn, not us who were dealt the hand and played the odds that were dealt to me, Last modified: Nov 30, 2018ok What's it all about??? getting so high till it made me sick, pictures in my head, of people dead, Lord save me quick, before i go out and do some crazy shit, see all my life I've been an outcast, with my head in a daze, in a maze like a mousetrap, thrown to world like trash, plotting skeems, by any means cash, run in his house, put my gun in his mouth and take his stash, living this way, how long will it last, before i rot in a cell, or end up in a body bag, I can see in her eyes that it makes my momma sad, I gotta make a change with a new game plan, and prove that im a changed man, I got kids to provide for, I'll kill and die for, i want more, but I'm stuck behind a locked door, and they wont let me out, i feel a black cloud is over my head and a thousand pounds, strapped to my chest holding me down, I used to walk with pride, now I walk with my head down, talking to myself, asking for help, but no ones there, and no one cares, death seems only way out, for me, the devils lurking trying to take my soul, i look to the sky and shout, What's this life all about, fuck those whoever doubt, cuz im a make it out, and when i do ill remember those that did me dirty, and left me hurting, feeling deserted, lost and alone, and worthless, acted like there perfect, but the Lord said not one soul is, not one person,feeling hopeless on hope im holdinthe pain cuts deep like a surgeon in my mind a firespain cuts deep like a surgeon in my mind a fires burning inside like a furnace these thoughts running through my head try ing to figure out why im here and what is my purpose shedding tears cuz i know i dont deserve this Last modified: Nov 8, 2018