Dear Lord, what am Im here for? Tears flow, sheer cold, da years go Da Fear grows, near real broke Chills From pills & dope, drugs steal souls Can't feel no more, Kills hope inside, in life mind implys suicide When supply is dry, friends died in highs fried talk 2 street signs Outside, nothing in sight Something ain't right, deprived From lights, pray 2 Christ Help me sleep at night Fights 2 strive, leauges in life revive life in my eyes Kuz it's light dies, hard 2 survive cursed in time, dis hurts despised by girls I liked In da world real suprised Don't cry, keep eyes high 2 da skies as I fly, Say bye ,I Rise in lights 2 paradise, if afterlifes better than da last life God flash bright Like frags ignite, eyes get blind Like you stared at da sun No one cared but da son & da father, who is one   ghost runs, in da blood close enough, no such luck Be like popes & nuns That spoke in tounges Hope angels touch Da pain 4 months Exposed when young Was rough, stuck like bugs Feds plug on phone ducts around us No clowns 2 trust Kick U down da ground When U down & out Found out No help abounds, Da hard way, Mouths were proud, Doubt 2 make dis time around Elements & compounds Infectin' 6 sense, surrounds amounts of pounds, drown markets Kids ask where mom is? Gone split from fam belonged in  honest lips false witnessed Lie 2 guys & wifes closest, Those Quite honest, Lied often Why? chonging monstrous  Is pestpostreous da demonic Gone in darkness,  warlocks sermons so far chronic, da lost projects & houseless hit, Floods city streets Communities, usually kids, using it, moving 2 students Ain't old enough 4 booze in cruise in, adolescents Had no sense, dealers pretend Be a Friend, for expense cash U spent, Hit me up again? endless cycle dispense Lost my friends, distant Went missing in missions Institutions, Inprisoned ain't living, killing friends In ends Descended 2 Heaven hope my ghost meet U again crossroads where lost souls connect Will dis end? Is they're rest From stress, that compress da chest, spreads death like plagues felt breathless fell helpless In a mess, head mind soul express depths of souls & flesh left hopeless, depressed In depths where next breath Is da last, wise men said Insects Infest, Egypt, Moses slept dead sea bed, Bleeds dark red death spreads. as plagues Affects continents, men bled In organs, bloody mess intensive, Dread gets da rest, Cept those blessed With  X Set on foreheads & doorsets Lord blessed flesh perfect In his image, vintage prints 2 da skin, none perfect surfaced Serphants trick da purpose Disperse cursed surface since beginnings Of sinning Earths spinning, get us against Men & woman, sisters & brethren  Friendships end, in  trenches da ends  don't depend on him Or her, girlfriends tend dishonest cheat on them w/ Da best friend,   I knew since adolescents Impacting marriages of parents Damages, No Magic feelings Love vanishes 2 ashes in labyrinths heart blackens sister has it, but I haven't Had it happen, ppl reactions They laughing, had no action Past 25 years, what happened? Back when da Man implants lands & seas, His hands critique His plans 4 me? A man lonely only thoughts companies Friends got honeys, one thing smiling, why nothing's funny? Lucky nobody loved me Even da girl I loved deep Don't give 2 fucks 4 me nothing W/ no money Some things not meant 2 be love 4 me, no love 2 see no one loving me Dis One doesn't see What dozens see, Love 2 keep See what societies seek deep meaning, we dreaming reality actually happening Feeling happy, really married What happened 2 me? Ask God, he answers me, W/ scenes where they scream Don't care 4 me, your so ugly U Look like a druggie, Lucky if a woman hugs me I'm nothing don't feel sorry ways it's gotta be,  I often think I've fallen deep w/ feeling Kneeling weak, these eyes seen Heavenly things, angelic wings Feelings deep sinking sinks Thinking feet Float mid air bove me When U really close 2 me, Lord spoke let go, Your wills deflect girls Dont hope, there's no Girls in world 4 you don't U know Zeros or Weirdos U ignored Don't chase these days, be disgraced always lose da race these days phased in space, Erase like vapes amazed by grace she makes Leaves me dazed in states, Better be straight 2 Heaven's Gate Afraid God made mistakes Made fates suffer great better pray da devil away 4 he possess mental states Escape hell I face, da gates jail implaced Jesus name, change within Envision worlds sins, birth of Mary da virgin Gives birth in 2 Servant Gods merchant serve kingdoms Serve freedom disperse demons His prayers gives word meaning Saviors ressurects intriguing He bleeding da blood of thugs Reeceeding from dust, reaching up Wake in mud & coffins shut Popping up like death often does Locked fallen ones, Till God in charge religions aint derserving Discernment burning connect Bones flesh condensed bread of life da breath is life, Forms da head & eyes, Combines minds & body alligned sense behind, only divine sights Writes life's seen through eyes strive 4 rights, why'd I loose sight? U Like hide? Need your light feed da fiends no one sees Through greed, selfish needs Rather help thee rich succeed see peeps bleed deep in cities, Loose teeth from streaks Of da Streets, weeks 2 years peaks Near decade leagues Awake in states, nightmare scenes Scared da dreams, real 2 me Society, folks I see, forget me Memories flow Like old movies ignore me, don't know me are friends true homies? do I choose poorly? Truth coldly hurts, soul slowly Hope Lord sees, Da broke fiends Who can't walk no more, Stand tall on they feet, Bless us w/ food 2 eat Good sleep, receive u speak Like Leaves of evergreen trees vividly burn w/ glory, Holy ceremonies Stories go in peace Scrolls showing me, pouring deep Wisdom over me, opening missing peace heaven keeps feel enemies against me Preventing entrances separating distances far between peace I need, Fiend 4 daily bread in me Reflect in scriptures I read Picturing Ghost within me delievering joy empty Dispensing demons Filling me, God's willing mercy Forgiven me, stop living In sinning, live in me, G.O.D See no peace if Lord leaves Hopefully cease in blaze of glories Escaping worlds misery stories whispering Danny missing, blowing winds Closing in Rinsing sins like John da Baptist did fallen men call on him follow him forgotten him Da blessings they've gotten Da father don't bother or honor his power within, even dollars print Trusted him ones who risen In coffins, killed him but still living given good news written 2 citizens, Jews don't listen 2 wisdom of Christians pray 4 those who didn't, lights glistened bright like heaven sent intelligence Swell Clouds swirl in distanced Lifts me 2 mid air positions In whirl winds like Elijah Da prophet, Who rised up With Christ right where God is World's end honest ppl come monstrous Like they possessed by demonic Spirits within like warlocks sermons So far chronic, gone psychotic God saw dis, help me stop dis don't know what 2 call it disease or sickness? Wish I'd never remember first hits Is this Da way it is? Don't wanna live w/ this