This goes out to my mom my rider my only believer Dear mama i ran away when i was 17 there was so much pain inside that i couldn't let out so much hate inside mama so i had to go away im sorry mama for all the pain and sorrow i caused you for making you cry all those nights wishing i was safe and sound im sorry mama for becoming someone you disapproved of somone that made you cry but mama i was only 17 living on the streets with no where to go and no where to turn to so mama i had to turn just to make it by day by day i tried my best mama and im sorry for bringing shame to the family we were all so happily living in a fantasy of our own insanity. Dear mama yes we argued yes i always undervalued you and im sorry mama for making you cry those nights i know the pain you felt inisde it was full agony towords me and after all these years mama im happy that you forgiave me for putting me first and you last thats something ill never do again. Dear mama all the pain i caused you makes me feel like an abomination to the world so many times ive urged myself to pull the trigger but i always think of the pain im gonna cause you and i love you mama and i will always me there by yourside through it all im sorry mama