I keep losing my faith..... I try to do more than I can..... With some more scars to hide... I really try to Be a MAN...... But does that truly matters.....? Even if I dig the pain.... No one believes in me..... I keep tellin' myself...... I've once seen the hell.... I don't wanna wish live anymore.... But I got one last RAP to write... So I quitely close the door... Like the first time...... When I got my heart BROKE.... Nah I wasn't in LOVE..... Fakers can't love anyone,really can they,yo? So with all the pains.... All I try 's to write this RAP.... I ain't got much to lose.... I'm now bit of a Handicap.... I try to survive every night.... I can't see my path in these maps.... I'm likely to lose myself... Here wasting my tears in these grass...... Here with the pains I stand...waiting for my end.... "LOVE" was all that I asked ..... Can You buy Love with a CENT? No you can't...cause money can never buy Happiness..... But still here I stand...Trying to feel my voice.... "You deserve better than me!!" Is that an excuse to give?... Did I love you so much more.... Just to get a "Goodbye Kiss"? No baby you gotta love me back.... Really Don't leave me now.... I am screaming your name..... Why Can't I just allow...... To let to go?...to let you live?.... Why Can't I really say...... "Baby I really Forgive......." Just because I loved you Maybe ..... More and more than you ever did! I try to feel my pain..... I try to find a cure for that Am I really losing mah mind....?? Do I really Need a Rehab?.... Or do I just need some Love? Some Love to give and Take.... Well....I won't find that now? Cause I feel to leave myself...!! I'm tired of this worthless tries.... My dreams have started to fade... I got to live this Life..... Loving these Emptiness.....! Maybe they'll love me back.... Maybe I will get loved Someday! But Till that miracle happens... All what I have is myself.... Now.... Here I stand and here I cry.... What did I do?...To get this fucking life?.... Guess what I didn't do such thing... I'm still breathin'...man I'm surprised...... No need to care....you don't need to waste your time.....!!! I'll see my way....And here I bid you GOODBYE...... Don't worry my love....everythin's will be fine..... Just not me..and you know it well... Then Why all such arrogance? Maybe The fault was mine..... Maybe I lost myself.... Maybe I loved you more.... But you just loved yourself..... But you see all the SCARS.... But not all my PAINS.... And along with this beat.... I try To bring the end..... With this Rap.... "I forgive You" Is all what I want to say...... Now I Remember my life.... "DESERVING" by XS...... And now My rap came to end.... And I'll love you all over AGAIN