been suicidal since I was 9..this world is cruel but I keep telling myself that I'll be fine...got my thoughts together lately and I had abit of sanity until I lost all hope in humanity I'm blatantly speaking I'm not in control of my own life these demons have got me know a leash and I'm barely able to breathe... I was told I'm so perfect how could someone so perfect be broken...my heart was stolen...and soul was sold...Satan gave me the strenght to move forward and I'm sorry god but no more praying...I'm just saying I'm tired of waiting...