it's my escape from All the heartbreak. My mom, Dad and most people I've ever been close to either flew away, there locked up, or they moved away 💯. Music is all that I have 💯 without it I'm nothing, I don't have shit, not even a little something. I leave my problems behind has I rewind and reminisce, so many memories that I miss. I'm not the same person, I look at the Man In The Mirror, but I don't know who this is. I've gone way too Far and I'm not sure if I can fix this. My baby mama ripped the heart outta my chest She took my 15 month old baby boy, She laid me to rest over 20 years ago, She got the best of me 2016 would get the rest of me. He turned 21 on the 15th of September On that same day in 2016, My father Flew away, I Will Always Remember I got robbed of being a daddy, not once, but 3 times She miscarried On September 11, My miracle Baby Mitchell, My Last shot of being a daddy, he was gonna Save Me No Lord, Please Take Me WTF, The Man Upstairs Has Took Everything That He Has Ever Gave Me. WTF did I do to deserve this? He Must Really Hate Me If So, Then Why Did He Ever Make Me? Before I lost my Son, I had no desire for addiction I had no convictions She took the wind outta my sails, She Took Everything including my ambition She disappeared like a magician I was only 18, but my Mama was so proud of the Man thatL I had become I stepped the Fuck up, I didn't run I gotta Job, I ain't a Fucking Buml Yeah I was young, Dumb, and Full Of Cum So many MF's thought that I was gonna run away and hide Middle Fingers up to those who thought that, Damn I had So much Pride God Damn, I Miss That Guy He loved everything about life Until that December Of 98 Night The Night I Died My Baby Boy Was Everything That I have Done Right I became an addict to numb the pain, No More Pride Never Again would I try No Lie I appeared to be happy, but I was dying inside This would lead to 2 or 3 attempts at suicide I wanted to get rid of the Pain once n for all, kiss my Ass Goodbye I just wanna die when I think about all the tears that I made my mama Cry Mama Flew away over three years ago, and I have to live with that, All because I wanted to get High. I was locked up when Mom and Dad Died Less than 6 months apart, the Man Upstairs Sent a message Loud and clear, No Lie.....