Finally shits working for me i got stable place and a job to be and a girl who i love unconditionally just praying to god that i can hold it together shits really hard for me emotionally i am all over the place driving myself insane putting mental strain on my brian its hard when your life has been full of pain so i say gods name in vane nothing happens everything is the same no one to blame life is just a game people drive me insane i dont need the drama i am awalys to blame i am like a tiger who has been tamed so i sometimes act insane Ya its ok i dont even know what to say my name is big j thatz what people call me but its ok i am an real og there no one else like me can't u see not to fuck with me my life is all fucked up i am barely holding onto my sanity so i go to the lcbo drinking till i change my thinking as i turn i see this chick winking at me so i walk over to the bar hey girl i am Hamilton want to have some fun getting drunk and doing blow all night go out for a smoke get in fight go back inside dance all night wake up in the morning next to this chick oh shit i cant remember her name i feel like a dick so i just dip going home to do a huge bong rip and i sit back and look at my life nothing ever goes right no matter how hard I fight i almost ended it all last night but i am still here shedding tears wishing i could take back many years of my life but its time to move on let the past be in the past for get about it at last Its time to take whats mine and be the man i want to be i dont care what anyone thinks about me i am doing this for me done with all these people taking advantage of me i know who to trust see