I grew up driving a truck full of responsibilitie s, Trying to make it through all the negativities With less possibilities, But the world was always pessimistic about my opportunities, less positivities, I was hyper active, even when my grandpa acting,like I was too young to be old enough for the plight I'm find in, I was a fighter grinding, Working my ass out, sweating under the rain, Searching for remedy to my malady, but I didn't utter the pain, Cos a problem shared is still your problem, Niggas be gloating over your predicaments, how the fuck will they help you solve em? Every time mama break down, I melt down, I beat up my chest and say to me "pick up your thorns and make crown, Out of em" life was radial and i was out of help, But then the best defense i can ever get is when i shield myself, From the fear of going against the world, so I brace myself, ready to face myself and save to myself. better of I know It ain't no gain that has no pain, it Ain't No love without no hate This life you live is all about this faith With lotta ups and downs for you to face Even most this people you thinking they got your back all be fakin Im fuckin feel so terrible So every now and I retaliate and pick up a pen and lay down my mind and for every time that I sobber, my fuckin heart simultaneously grow colder I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder I'm on a psychological warfare, my thoughts getting bolder I'm self turning older My psychopathic state of mind turning me over I keep my own composure Avoiding a self disclosure Secure my feelings from this worlds exposure I'm a loner cos I'm scared of being hurt ones more Fallin in love is damn risky Buh tell me who wanna remain for ever lonely? it's crippy Why did we have to fight for people who don't understand the efforts we make towards keeping the bond stronger and make the love last longer Instead we have to fight errday and at night we lay and cry so hard over the emotional war and Trying not to be noticed, crying and sobbing bout the heartbreak You know it's a shame when errbody knows how you live that love life, We fail to understand each other simply because we both got different perspectives