I never thought I'd quit this , but when everyone was out for themselves I did this , now everyone who used to know me dissed this , didn't see the struggles I was going thru, didn't give a shit , I should of commit but my mental health didn't permit it. . now the only time I rap is at Christmas. . now I'm a living instrument, who used to under the influence , I wouldn't of been the best influence, to the infants, wanted people to know my skill in an instance , was a hindrance, to my visions pixels n pigments, everyone back stabbed spoke shit any instants, thought I needed assistance, but really I wanted people to know I was consistent and persistent, but Mean stream couldn't be coexistent, I didn't need Mr Smith blue genie to make a wish and be decent, instead of helping everyone out i needed appeasement but everyone had there own ideas , and not in agreement, now I'm an underachievement. . But some people give the weakest of reasons , but I still don't think I deserved this treatment. now shut the fuck up when I'm speaking. I don't blame any of them, no one was better back then but the stabs to the back were to much to hack , so I did it back to them . .At the end of the day were all men I just wish I knew what I knew now back then . . and I would of been stronger personally Nd helped everyone of them . . looking back at what we all did was dumb of me and dumb of them. we could of been somewhere instead of looking back again, if we were all stronger we could of been a crew people wont want to to mess with them, so welcome for the reckoning. . we already made Czl stop making Detox. now bring on the beckoning, bending these words Beckham them. Now I just want to be par with the rest of them or the best of them, but years lost no time for back peddling, I want to be heard deafening,