My only friend the darkness is my friend, and the light is my enemy and no matter what I do these emotions are fucking with me this pain is like a volcano when it causes an eruption, it's mass destructive, but I've lost the instructions on how to function, and now I'm feeling lost, I used to be strong but everything I had is now suddenly gone, and that's where I ask myself where did I go wrong but I can't leave my past behind, I've tried and when I close my eyes it's like I'm reliving those nights, these figurines torture me all the time and it causes me to lose my mind, so why keep trying if I can acknowledge myself crying life was precious, but now it's deceptive and all these poisons are becoming more effective, and life has become so infective it's harder to get by with everyday, when life becomes lame, these bad thoughts just seem to stay, you just can't shake them away, but when. you ask someone for help they never begin to fade, and that's when the stress begins, you wish you could numb the pain just to make it end, and life becomes harder so you begin to lose your interest, that's when you realize what you really have left, so you push yourself just to become the best, you start feeling uncomfortable so it's harder to find some rest and you're losing everything and it's making you upset, then you start feeling depressed, you're getting tired of hanging on so you want to put a rope around your neck, and your friends begin to hate you so you lose their respect, and that's when you slip and kick over the desk but the rope tears and now you're on your knees crying because none of it makes sense