I have some deep dark issues with in I dont like to show my feelings and I'm always told that it is bad to not let my feelings out so that's why I chose to do music so I can express my fellings through song right now I feel like shit and I feel like everything is my fault I feel like I Fuck every bodys life up with mine and people do stuff for me that I think I don't desever it seems like I will express my fellings and something in my famililes life fucks up and then I feel so sad I want to end my life sometimes I look in the mirror and I look myself in the eye and I think what a peice of shit I am looking at then I let my self esteem get me down.i get tired of feeling like shit but I feel like I have to deal with it and some times I second guess if God really exist cause if he dose how come I can't find him cause right now I feel like I really need him cause I feel like shit..