Souls shaking. Minds waking. Voices in my head are creating, worry fear and headaching. Distracted by something, maybe nothing. More of my happiness is for the taking. My soul needs an awakening. A new place my mindset can be, other than the past earquaking. I keep contemplating whether Im suffering for nothing or mistaking whether what happens next, to the greatness that's awaiting. The past is over now, time for a new begging, expect my soul is still living what I used to live when the good days were missing. Need to stop dissing and start thriving in my new emotion Im seeing, rather than one I bin in and one I've been feeling. So I got to go with the flow. Lifes journey and the places I'm ment to go. No dark turning that make me feel suicidal and low. Got to find my way in life before I can't catch up in the new and stuck in the old. Just like the journey, I have to row my boat. Keep going and gradually understand who i am. And the difference beetween my identity and steryotype cause I need to know wilst I grow into a man. Need to leave the depression and anxiety behind me. Need to get rid of these demons so they can't fight me. And find me and blind me, of the greatness in the future of what I see. As my life ticks and tocks and times me. Until I rest in a grave, a natural death, not a crime scene. Cause I know I'm a criminal when I want to murder myself when I want to die and when I wana bleed. I feel passionate about rap. Cause it releases my feelings when there trapped. Soul bottles up my feelings and in my head the voices sing death songs and attack. My soul can't relax. Understand now that I'm not dillusional, just spiritually attached. Can express how I feel when demons and bullies fight me and my soul struggles to fight back.