restart (lyrics 👇 snippet not the audio snippet!)

I just wanna restart life you know what I'm sayin'? I don't deserve to be here I don't for one I don't have a purpose. and like.... maybe just like... breathing wasn't mean't for me.. of course growing up was a struggle bullied picked on and jumped afraid to even walk out the door afraid of not seeing the morning light anymore. stepping into school getting made fun of just cause who I was pushed over board, suicidal I go.. 12 years old now still ain't any better no body would still lend me a warm sweater over the winter thinking maybe this life wasn't mean't for me here I am now... still fighting, but how long can you fight, fore' you say "fuck it goodnight"? say a pray, maybe the next day will be a hell of a delight depressional tone. yes I understand it, breathing isn't mean't for me I'm a sacrifice, for more than over half my life even tho that I rap, even tho that my life isn't how it seems, when I'm on a live stream. that doesn't that I don't gotta fake what I'm not. ima actor, I'm hated cause my life yeah but its absolutely nothing new boo billions of thoughts, hunting me til' I rot. you better rot in hell, you can say that's a farewell I'm falling apart, nobody understands I can't even explain, i don't even wanna say cause I know for a fact that nobody cares all the alterations why always complications?!