hear a beat replaying again and again through the motions in your knees and your feet cant keep up with the grinding of your teeth and your fingers are nearly paralyzed cause your mind can barely recognize one thought or even differentiate the reason this feeling makes you feel so great and once your shoulders start to shake and and faces you don't know you make the people all begin to stare or maybe they're not even there or maybe you're just paranoid but fuck that word that's not on me I'm being careful just well aware of everything that I think I'm doing and of this gum I am not chewing and how I keep brushing my hair off of my face and then compare myself to someone else and dignify why I'm so scared to be misjudged and set apart and while I talk and stare at the ground I hide my eyes so big around are all these things inside my head it's been ten minutes wait. I'm still in bed