lost in myself with these doped fucked friends.. sleep deprivation.. the fun begins.. shadows bend.. coming to life.. awaiting the bright ones tricks of night.. deprived.. false hope of a fight.. vamp life the new way to die. enticed bye sex and violence.. the Meths got us stuck in a trance eyes glazed in mindless.. shattered sight in a floating Haze metallic taste of a 50 shuts down the brain.. there's never tomorrow yesterday's the past today's bitch on the way out to a fucking body bag maybe as youngun.. momma shoulda fuckin gave me a hug.. past is the past the presents fucked.. no love.. Streets took it all so I gave back what.. a thug.. fuck.. screaming at the next please come get some.. damn.. I feel like death is a better option.. I know the word.. but in my life sobriety doesn't exist.. so I trip.. in the end there's no fucking escape from this.. shit.. there's never tomorrow yesterday's the past today's bitch on the way out to a fucking body bag so feed me pills.. lock me up.. The crazies can't be released.. if I'm unleashed youll meet the beast.. Ben awake least wait.. off my meds.. psychotic break.. know where to place the blame.. razor on my arm can youcut away the pain.. no Grace. asking God why do I have tolive this life.. till I die.. is my past forever going to be my crime.. no lie.. can't die so I cry.. there's no escaping the spotlight.. no time to get right.. is it better this way.. tears of a clown eyes trying to fool the game.. ashamed.. what a waste of time man there's never tomorrow yesterday's the past today's bitch on the way out to a fucking body bag