Lord, sometimes I forget about you, but you remember me Something that I struggle with, still trying to find an identity I have trouble always following me, those few sins especially That break me down quickly, emotionally and mentally I should know better, realize when I'm tempted Nobody's perfect and I know I'm not exempted I watched this hill become a mountain and now it looks big to me Cause I didn't cross it when I should've and it cost me my dignity It's been too many years and I can't bear To look in the mirror cause it grinds my gears I feel the pressure, but not from my peers A few times I shed some tears But now it's time to finally deal with these fears And make some changes to negate the dangers Turn my pages and start a new chapter Cause a fresh outlook on life is what I'm after Crying out, 'Save me Lord, save me from what I've been praying for!' Cause another mistake is not one I can afford! My friend said life's about the live and learn Still, I feel like most times I can't discern He replied back, 'Well, I suppose there's always room for improvement' But I swear, if it happens one more time I'll just lose it! Because I find so many times I, myself am tired of excuses I've been given so many privileges so why must I abuse them? Maybe I'll never understand, yeah I find it kind of bizarre Even though I know the consequences, I still end up going too far Times when I'm not in a good or conscious mental state Being bothered by these monsters that cause my stress level to elevate Man, these actions used to make me feel guilty! Sadly, these are now the things I do feeling guilt-free What have I done? Streak of terror, what have I begun? Guess I'm not ready, I'll end up a wreck If I don't get this ship steady Really, this isn't a rap, this is my prayer And now I'm putting it all in His care 'Cause as soon as I try to put it behind me The next thing always seems to remind me And the fight continues on inside me Controlling the smallest aspect of my life Leading me to this unnecessary strife I'm feeling guilty for forgetting the foundation that built me I wanna walk through the open gate before it's too late Decide on a new fate and start out with a clean slate Already hoping the scars aren't perminent My 100th chance, I haven't earned it But the lesson, I learned it 'cause it left me burned from it And forgiveness, I've yearned for it Now I'm going in with a new determinate So it's time to wake up, start to shape up Take up my cross and keep my faith up And make a resolution to renew my focus and finally find a solution! Before this thunder rolls, Lord hear my cry Stay by my side and be my guide Throughout this ride of life Please provide for me and keep your arms open wide Be my source of pride, Lord, with me abide