As I grow older Im starting to see that life is nothing like what I pictured it to be everyday my depression tries to take control of me and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I haven't had any joy in my life for years now and I'm too afraid to ask people for help because I fear that they'll care and if I end up taking my life I don't want to know how many people I will be turning into me and putting them in a sea of darkness where you can't even see your hand in front of your face where the only thing you can do is stay in one place. please don't feel bad for me this will be my therapy and maybe I'll even be Happy let's just wait a see but for now I'm gonna continue fighting