this evil within is locked away I feel the anger and rage from the sorrow and pain, never that I would snap amd break my mental state is not uninhabitable, my mind is slipping these thoughts are clouding my perception losing grasp of reality I slip further away, trying to hold on to the last bit of those raise, warm on my face, better days...lost in haze I go to the back, darkness taking grasp...think ill nap...the door shuts...the sheet is the only warmth I feel as it hugs me...I look up in a daze smile on my face your going to be ok...tears flow down my face how did it get to this so alone and empty inside here I am going to take my life....I close my eyes a flash of memories as step off...I hear screams, please open the door daddy...I cant believe I'm leaving them behind its to late I'm dead weight ...the door busts open and I see them one last tine