Ceaser 84116

6 years ago

(Daniel Wayne. By midnight beat) didn't mean to hurt him didn't mean to pistol wip his head didn't mean to shoot them and know I'm the one stuck with the nightmares ... while I'm cookn I sometimes stay up or get woken up with the thought that my heart just stopt I drop to the floor gasping for air trying to breath through my nose cus the oxygen doesn't want to come out my mouth Damn what's my body doing to me now babe I can't breath it's ok your ok just go back to sleep Shit life's fucking with me but I can't give up I stay woken up till I pass out on the couch with my thoughts drifting in my mind clouds dreams! I wake up after my girl Emorine just got done droppin off my son to school and me getting ready to go to work at 11:00 gotta be there but sometimes im late I hope I don't get written up or even worse fired so I always put in extra work bust my ass I hope Frank's in good mood I hope all the homies on the line feeln good we all  bust our ass's for our own reasons or just for our own personal pleasings "didn't mean hurt him didn't mean to pistol wip his head didn't mean to shoot them and know I'm the one stuck with the nightmares ..." while I'm cookn and me  I got a beautiful lady 3 amazeing babies that im feeding im feening for more recognition from this place its hard though when your sometimes late and call in cuz your fam wants to spend more time and my girl just wants to see my face !! but I'm here at wrk so I let thees thoughts go and grab my food its my turn to go on break!! I got a look in my face that I show to the  world with a grin and a bunch of immature jokes that hold down the vibe   cuz I know all my co workers and the old folks  like the  good humor its contagious it beats ragesnous and the hateas but behind! that grin there's a man wit a gat and a S.L.C  hat A past that haunts his head that follows him everywhere my music I bump should give out most my messages of the drive bys run ups that made my life think there out to get me looking out my window I can't even trust no one but my ladyto watch my babies cuz of my uncle that raped me and the fake friends that betrayed me and the fake ass smiles that make me angry and all the calls I got just cuz punks were getting punked so they called me cuz they new who was a real thug in the 80-one