look life is hard I'm surprised I'm still standing it is like a blade cutting into my soul it's affecting me mentally I mean it's crazy I had suicidal thoughts going through my brain it was a tragedy I didn't expect it to happen to me but it all stopped when I met a girl Natalia she made me realize what I would lose and I should spare my life to the day I die you I hate weekends I can't spend time with her I have to wait til the days end she had me gazen and prayen that the day would end faster