I've been living this life with my eyes closed I was taking these hits until I caught a cold cough that is enough to wake me up from my sleep, it's too steep, so deep Me keeping searching a feeling that is never told i ain't no drug addict, no I ain't the one to tell lies, you should know A dealer inside my head, providing me dread Just waiting for the time when I give a go will get me windin up dead put out the misery I've always been feelin, Killin me but never healin this pain from consistently sinnin Sure it's thrillin but I ain't thinkin gotta pay the toll that has always been billin through what i've been dealin Grew up in a place influenced with crackheads So much money spent on meth while our lunch is just bread I was eight when they lit up a spoon with their eyes blood red next day lyin breathless on the ground stabbed dead