I been thru alot of hurt better make me dirt a nap before I kirk and take a soul my heart so cold that ion even know how to feel anymore sometimes I got the urge to kill that's me wanting to purge I'm on on the merge of self destruction I was under mental reconstruction but my condition put an end to my repair process now ion really care and I dare a nigga to tempt me ina dark room all hempt out I ainn never had it easy ppl wanna act petty when you tryna come up mfs wanna see you down face frowned up I ainn never crown myself all I ever did was try and make ppl proud of me but they hate so loud that my heads up in the clouds ppl treat me like ima monster so I put my emotions in the dumpster use to vent now I just camp out in a tent til the storm pass over let the pain rain down and stain me I'm just a burden walked passed a garden and it died I tried to be good but ppls hatrid flood my body so much that I've lost apart of me they say what dont kill ya make ya stronger that's why I hold it all in but idk how much longer I can bury it emotionally distressed tired of ppl tryna carry me as a joke maybe I'll choke em out til they eyes poke out their heads excuse me I need my meds I'm on some crazy shit mentally you might die tryna explore my mental to its core yea I'm at war with myself I can hear them thoughts roaring through my brain like a plane soaring in the sky I'm just tryna fly to a better place and touch base I ainn tryna gain shit from my pain fuck ya sympathy if you could visually see what I go thru you'll physically shut down and drown in all this sorrow