[Intro] To be honest I didn’t even want to make this I knew the topic I would talk about was frowned upon and heavily debated Everybody thinks I’m happy but I’m not and this here is my confession How I let a girl destroy me and then push me to the point of this depression [Verse] Yeah I’m talking about that do or die (yeah) Yeah I’m talking bout that suicide (yeah suicide) Got all these cars man but who gon' ride? Fucked my friend a couple times Told me all those fucking lies So I wrote a song so you could find out how I felt inside I swear to God I almost shot myself a couple times I should be dead So I had a talk with God and he told me it’d be hard so I asked if I could stay and he could take you instead (amen) Remember all the shit that you was telling me? How you loved me and want nobody above me Now it’s funny all the shit that you promised is just a memory (fucking lie) You gave me something to believe in Then you broke me into pieces and it’s fucking with me mentally (I can't think straight) And I can’t trust no other bitch because I’m starting to see women as the enemy (I swear) I saw you texting with the dude and it was cool because you told me you and him were just friends Then I caught you in the bed, let it slide, took you back, and then you went and fucked the same dumb nigga again What the fuck bitch? I gave my all to you There’s a kid that no ones knows about and me and you both know I am the father too That means I am a part of you, you went and broke my heart in two Then stabbed me in the back and watched me bleed and pulled an audible Fuck! How you think this gon' end? Cause I been dealing with depression, social media attention They expect me to be happy but I’m fucking depressed I swear I’m fucking depressed All the money in the world don’t mean a thing if you can’t share it with somebody that you love and that you fucking respect Do you know how it feels to be awake But all you want to do is go back to sleep? (do you?) Because reality is suffocating pushing on your chest so all you want to do is go and live your life in your dreams? (can you relate?) Do you know how it feels when the person that you love doesn’t love you back? When they say the right things but their actions are the opposite of everything they tell you everyday to relax? (I need help) Bitch I would've killed for you! Man fuck all of this music shit I’d pass up on a deal for you! Other niggas tried to fuck, I swear I only saw the real in you! You cheated twice and now I can’t fuck with you! you broke it off with me and now you cant see what the fuck you did to me can you see all the pain and suffering that you brought to me. your blind to the fact that my love for you was true love was all i tried to give you compassion expression loyalty impression with no aggression what the fuck with wrong with sobriety don't you ever doubt me cause I'm on the grime got to many dimes to be spending anytime