alright, let's give this another try we already know that I'm in the sky and it may appear to the naked eye that I dont care and im in disguise I dont want no one to make up any lies so I'm gonna lay it down here on these lines the boy doesn't know how to feel inside and I have this growing fear to be denied deep inside I can feel the worst pain everytime I think of your first name I miss your face and your firm frame but damn girl on my birthday told me talking to me was a mistake then you tried to talk to me the next day like what the fuck you tryna say from crying nothing will prevent me I'm done with this shit I have to keep it moving go to school everyday I have to keep improving it didn't matter anyway you are still disapproving I'm not in any shape to be pursuing I sit in my basement and fuck around with music thinking about all my chances and how I blew it you gave me all the warnings and I'm still clueless but damn girl you can truly be ruthless all the time youd make me feel useless all that aside you still the coolest I'm hiccup, and you're my toothless everytime I'm around you I still feel breathless but the thing is I dont think you're that invested so it makes me stop and start to question are there other boys you've been messing with, fuck now I'm stressing shit I don't even know what I'm trying to say but I think about you every single day I have so many people trying to tell me that it's more than stupid, its unhealthy this is the last thing I could ever want you are talking to the boy who never lost the tickets to our first date, riding a train to moa, and in my brain forever that will remain I love you so much this song I dedicate to the girl that truly made me change not being with you makes me go insane so I'm really sorry that I have to stay away because I swear these feeling will be the death of me because i can only deal with it sythenticly it also gives me this poetic theme my poem almost on your level aesthetically sorry it's taken awhile I've been killing rappers though it's been tough with my heart being shattered and now that Ive layed it all out on a platter tell me what you think, only your opinion matters please sit down and listen to my words poetically and try to think what they possiblly meant from me also think about me, genetically and the boy and where he be