Where could I have gone with my life if I just had more focus? I can't help but feel I chose this. Every opportunity missed led to doors open. I found a wife I can put my hope in a family I love. I cherish every moment. Living up to my mistakes. I own it. If you want progress you better show it. All I know is that it all fell apart when my morals eroded. I can still feel the anxiety. It was like my chest exploded. Man, not many people know this. But you are my homies, I left behind all the phonies. Maybe we would find out we are a lot alike if you would just get to know me. Choices to make. Give more than you take. Realize what's at stake, Every day is a clean slate. As I kneel to Pray I feel so great. Sometimes it's so hard to concentrate with all of these galaxies in my brain. But this a part of me I would never change. Yeah if I got a college degree I might be a major player in the money making game, but what about all of those beautiful sunny days where I would just lay and be lazy? Short term memory loss keeps things hazy, but what I do remember is amazing. No regrets. God always knew what was next, Every trial was an opportunity to be Blessed. I hold down my lane. It's my job to dream big and contemplate the whole universes fate. Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be Holy. We shouldn't do this, we shouldn't do that, We were just four rugrats being raised by a single dad. I love my mother to death I'm not mad. I'm just so glad she came back. I have a Supreme respect for my dad. The last thing I wanted was to make him mad. Honestly I wanted the guidance he was trying to show me. He wasn't trying to control me. I hated lying, I was the emotional one crying. But I don't care because in my head I'm flying to places of pure zen. I'm the same now as I was back then. I still get lost in thought I don't understand human trends. Man I think about existence a lot. But the ascension just won't stop, There is no limit, no top. No finish, it's non stop! We are each a piece to a grand design. Be comfortable with who you are inside and free your mind. Be spiritually free not spiritually dead. Religion doesn't matter, it's just what you read. Don't believe the lies your fed. Spirituality is my greatest med, Like a deep conversation with a friend. This is real not pretend. If it was fake then why would they send, UFO's to me and my friends? It just wouldn't make sense. Everything they did was for my benefit. Seeing their ships was like the greatest trip. Like the strongest hit. They forced me to admit. There's a creator of existence. Who keeps every blazing star lit. No longer a part of the rebel resistance. I avoid evil. I keep my distance. But I love people, I'm Working towards change with persistence. The old me is gone, evicted. Try to comprehend the concepts depicted and drop all activities that are wicked. Don't run from problems when you can fix it.