Confusion. So I been having trouble lately with airing my thoughts, my resolve's starting to crumble, I'm aching I'm feeling caught, caught up in the struggle, is this reality or something more? I'm unsure, which way is up anymore, can't tell the roof from the floor, or the ground from the wall, it all looks the same to me, just imaginary, a customary illusion, created to hide the truth from my eyes like a cloud covers the afternoon sky, mass confusion, I don't even know why but something inside keeps me quiet, I'm considering using, just to try to unwind sometimes, because I'm so damned tired all of the time, so damned tired of this life! I'm cynical of anything other then what I know, I'm watchful of everything that I see, or am shown, I'm quizzical, literally trying to understand why I'm so damned broke, is life just one big joke? and I'm so accustomed to lookin after myself, that I got nothin' else, been so encumbered by the notion of hell, could it exist? Well.. I've got a soul, I got memories, but I get a feelin' that this soul ain't even meant for me, I gotta know, if this is destiny, cause heaven it's there just in front of me, if I could reach out and touch you there'd be no holding back, I feel this need to be loved, that I'm afraid you might catch, if I could walk out and fly up to you, I would do just that, I'd give everything just to hold you in my arms for a night, I'd give anything to see you for every day of my life, what I'd give to be next to you, for you to be mine, what I'd give up to be close to you, for you to be mine, I find comfort in the thought of one day holding your hand, and though I'm broken and torn there's no way that I'm done, man, there's no place for my future son, if-I don't learn to learn to stand, if I don't try, if I don't strive, if I don't even decide how I am meant to live life, if I don't even aspire to do anything with my time, if I don't have drive, if I don't try to fight, life is a fight for survival, life is a right not just a parable, life is a miracle, sure, life is inexplicable, more, life is immeasurable, unquestionable, indefinable, indescribable, undeniable, evolutionary miracles happen every day, but nothing on the scale of the human race, we are unique, humanity thriving on this rock in outer space.