feels so good to see u after 3 months u been out far from here . I miss u I had to see I'm sorry don't know why .....I feel bad for everything can't help the feeling I had when I seen u leave I tried to close my eyes and pretend it was alright but I didn't feel right u where on my mind and I missed u..hold up how are u doing I'm just fine .he answered and sad what u been doing I stared at him holding on to him telling myself u got this there's nothing to it ...but than I realized my eyes where wide open and I missed u like I don't think I would but I did...and my words where to her he's there on the side road waiting for u to give him a ride home..my heart wanted for once in all the times that it beated to have both of u right next to me and I than said to myself are u stupid...... that moment I realized again it was happineg right in front of my eyes and I didn't even hide the hurt inside I just let it be what it was and I felt stupid sad oh so very u wouldn't believe this time like no other did it feel like more than just blown away by the love iof my life and the love in my life it was so strange to me what a feeling I got to see it all and than again he lyes down in ur bed like the man that I knew and I said look here I get up and stare at him like he thinks I'm stupid but than the list in my heart heart I reach out to him and nothing changed it was like yesterday but than we took pics and looked at them like we did before but we both felt it to hat there was much more to it yeah that where u come in and just be there in all ways I'm not used to it ohhhohhh nooo notice to it I miss u already I'm getting nervous this conversation quiet and than he says those words I missed u but I didn't know u where feeling like that to it....even than I was thinking of u leaving I felt stupid cause I really took u for me and just didn't think it through like I should have and than his friend comes over we drink and than I think of u in glances wondering if u are feeling me too like I miss u or was it true that we where through did u mean it ..or ur so hurt u can't see it that u miss me too like u never thought u would ..it's confusing tea ohhh yeah after the moment happened like u thought it would well it didn't not even close to it but I wanted him like never before but again phone rings and he tells me I got go and he walks out the doors I felt stupid.....still thinking of u and if u made home safe I'm sorry can't tell u nomore or how to forgive me ........forgive me but it's the truth well than we stay his friend Be I we sing a few songs than my heart cried inside cause I wanted u there to tell me it's alright but u weren't and I felt stupid . ..the sirens are lighting the morning at my door and than when the leave he follows them to where he suppose you be .but as usual I should have known he would have been the same just to go like before and I still don't get it it to that that was it all for what I still missed which was for nothing ll the pain j caused u I'm so sorry I'm stupiidd.