yhThe shit ive been through and the shit im going through doesnt define who i am or what kind. I seek to be a good man and i know thats what i will find no matter how much time or how hard the climb. Ive been stupid for too long let people down commited crimes, hid behind lies in my mind wasted my prime with drugs in the mean time not noticing the things i love disappearing. Wasnt seeing clearly just floating through the city pushing away people who try to help me. Im paying for it dearly regrets comsume me and i now live life very angry. The one thing that really gets me is the loss of my girly who i love more than anything. She couldnt take anymore. She coukdent keep picking me up off floor. I couknt show her how much i adored. So she closed the door and made boon bird no more. Im lost now and all i wamt to do is get her back somehow. Its been such a rough road and such a heavy load nobody really knows your struggles or battles and how long you had to sit in that sattle. My brain is rattled, my life is shattered and i cant put the pieces together without her. Forever doesnt mean forever these days im disposable in so many ways i guess its easy to find ways.