remember the day like it was yesterday i was okay i used to pray and my head didn't say all these thing on replay the night was just night but now its a cage i didn't fight i didn't struggle trying to hide from the things in my mental i could just lie in contentment not dread afraid of the things that id let in my head let in my bed letting my hate turn my veins into led i was a kid i didn't know i looked at life and visualised it a little bit warmer little bit kinder in it i found that you learn to survive when people around me they seem to thrive was it my parents was it my house halfe of that place i built up from the ground i mean that and say it quite literally i couldn't swim but i tried not to drown i didn't frown then i had something to call it my own now id give all just to feel not alone